04/08/2012
My Parents just got back from meditation retreat in new Jersey. Well Dad spent most of it at the Raritan center medical center. At first it was yay the rents are gone...yes sleep in for as long as can. But of course we missed our parents. They arrived yesterday and the reunion could not be happier. But today it was as if nothing had changed and things were back to normal...tense and like walking on eggshells.
It can be so exhausting just watching your parents not getting along at all and what seems or could be normal is just utterly and painfully stressful. I know for a fact it is never going to change. Ever since I was a little girl, I used to wish that hopefully one day they can see their behavior which has been secretly recorded for a long time. It is so exhausting trying to be parent to a parent and doing what are supposed to be doing as parents. I would like to be a child for once. I am 39 years old and have yet to experience my childhood.
