Four Vines

2010 LODI Petite Sirah
LODI - a city in north central California
Petite Sirah - a grape variety

I found this beautiful jewel nestled among the bottles on sale at The World Market.  Normally $12.99...it was on sale for $6.49.  I was definitely game to give it a try. 
This beautiful red wine boasts a subtly sweet, gentle flavor, just long enough to make you want to take another sip.  A fairly evident spicy aftertaste is very much a welcome surprise.  I would like call this one a truffle because it was a hidden gem.  Must enjoy again....:)

                                     "....toffee on the nose, big boysenberry fruit,....massive structure wrapped in a velvet glove...."

Derek Benham
Proprietor

Today

Today has just been one of those days.  I am having mixed feelings.  Ray moves his things in today...I am not really excited but I know I should embrace each new day with the anticipation of things to come on that day.  Why do I do that all the time???  There is this newfound fear yet again and that leads to me being guarded.  Ray is a good guy but I cannot remain off guard...just cant.  I feel like I am going to lose my space....ah there it is my space.  It is the one place I look forward to at the end of the day...so now no more walking around how I feel like it:/.  Not only that he is bringing 30 of his plants on my deck...wth???  Oh well...tomorrow is my day off and I am so looking forward to it.  I am spending Friday night helping him pack and then next morning we are going to his bowling tournament so that should be fun:).  I am just getting so tired of his needy nature already...because he whines about every single thing!

Pensive

My dear diary,

I am merely reflecting on the tidbits of thoughts that constantly, I mean constantly race through my mind.  It never stops.  When I am not thinking about something, which is rare, I am racing wildly with my fingers.  A neverending saga.  I am thankful.  I am thankful that I can live in the present.  Sometimes moments like the ones I am about to reflect upon are moments people actually want to live and reflect upon.  I feel truly blessed to actually do so.  I am thankful for being able to work, go to school, have an amazingly, loving, dysfunctional family...it is all a beautiful part of actually belonging to something, someone, and somewhere.  My refuge.  My thoughts just go towards Sushma.  I hope you are doing okay.  I can understand why you are standing on the outskirts of everything you once knew.  It is because you don't know where you belong.  Even if you were made to feel like you belong, deep down you still would not know.  And I dont blame you.  I know one day you will come around and when you do, when you let go of everything that has taken control of your life, you will truly be able to encompass everything that can make you truly happy.  I love you, I pray for you, I wish you the happiness that you still search for.